まんなかで

taken about the middle of May 2015 w/ Rolleiflex T

Now it is middle of May; the roses must be blooming beautiful in her garden. Come to think of it, I was living in Japan this time last year. It seems like a distant past. Visiting a few of my favorite places, meeting my friends, taking photos, eating and drinking with my close people, cooking, making coffee everyday for my father and me, watching baseball games on TV, taking care of my plants, just spending time alone, organizing my personal belongings, paying a visit to the grave of my mother and my sister-in-law's, thinking about them and my cats gone, and thinking about my future. There were several moments when I thought of nothing; just being in the state of emptiness.
Now my work has come to occupy a significant part of my life, and because of that some parts inside me have expanded. I can say I'm still developing, improving (except for some abilities;). I waver sometimes, my thoughts pendulous between this and that, but I enjoy life a great deal.


５月も真ん中。去年の今は考えてみると徳島でうろうろしてたっけ。あれやこれや考えたり、ただからっぽのこころで時を過ごしたり。
今は仕事が自分の生活で大きな位置を占めるようになったけれど、今もあの頃とそんなに変わらない。やらなきゃと思っていることを先延ばしにする癖も、時間を無為に過ごしてしまう日があることも。違うのは、それでも積極的に毎日を楽しんでいると言えること。

私信；aちゃん、お誕生日おめでとう〜(^O^)／