晴れのち曇り

at a nearby beach; taken in November 2014

It got cloudy unfortunately when we got to the beach, but we had a really good time there. 

Koma; taken in late November, 2014; w/ LOMO LC-A

How can I tether my heart to keep it from sinking into unknown depth? Just need something that occupies my hands and make my mind concentrate? Or should I go on a trip somewhere?

Why are you not with me here now?

It's no use asking to myself, I know. Staying in sadness and loneliness is kind of easy, but I just can't forever.

One of my very few friends came to see me yesterday. She has a magical power to lighten up the atmosphere around her, and here she did exercise that power on me. I wonder if I will be able to be of  any help when she is down. I hope so, I want to.

10ヶ月以上会ってなかった。忙しい中を時間を割いて来てくれてありがとう。会う機会はすごく少ないけれど、参ってる時に来てくれる（１年前もそうだった）。外へ写真を撮りに連れ出してくれた。数も少ない上に近くにいる友人となると片手で数えられるしかいないのだから、大切にしなくてはと本気で思った。気を使わせない心遣い、自然に楽しくさせる才能、もちろん写真の才能も素晴らしい彼女。撮られるのは本気で苦手なのに、彼女が今日撮ってくれた写真、どんな風に仕上がるのかな、なんて思うの初めてかも。

天気は晴れのち曇りだったけれど、わたしの気分は逆。